Dear Readers,
I know you may be wondering what ever happened to that stravelista girl? Did she turn into a mime over halloween never to speak again?
Well I'm happy to tell you I'm still here planning my travels daily dreaming of places as I continue my daily routine.
Today I'm stuck in the middle between the life I used to lead and the life many of the people in my age group have started to lead. I know you shouldn't compare yourself to others and everyone has their time. I just wish I had a sign or a compass for life. Something that would gear me in one direction or the other. What do you do when you are no longer interested in nightclubs, random hook ups, living on gut instinct, but don't have the desire for houses, mortages, babies, and the like?
As the saying goes I don't know where I'm going I just know where I've been. I had a long time in which I regretted all the things I have not done and then I realized sometimes you need to give up some dreams for others..but what happens when you no longer dream?
At work recently I was asked what do you want? Where do you want to go? Everyone else in the room had a plan with a specific goal. Me? My answer you ask? To be happy. Such a simple statement but so hard to accomplish.
I look at the girl that came down here with a dream, inspired by the Kelly Clarkson song to make a wish, take a chance, and breakaway. And I wonder how at 22 things were so much clearer than they are right now. I have stopped looking back and now wake up everyday as a new chance but a chance at what?
I guess it's something hard for me to conquer because I was always the person that knew exactly what they wanted and would go for it and usually get it. Want to become a cheerleader but had no rythm and had a knack for tripping over my shoes? Practiced, practiced till my mom dreamnt of my cheers. Want all A's? Studied till I feel asleep on my books at the kitchen table. Liked that cute guy? Kept making eye contact and passing notes till he finally kissed me. Wanted to get to school with no help from my parents? Walked every step of the way even though it took twice as long.
I'm not one to give up BUT its hard to get somewhere if you don't know where that is. When will I feel as I did that day walking along the ocean as I will realized my dream had become a reality? How to achieve something when you don't know what you are looking for?
I guess you have to trust, trust that good things happen to good people and one day this, much like many days and experiences will just be a distant memory a snapshot in the collage they call life.
And with that readers, I only wish you moments that make your photo album fuller with stories to fill your future with joy.
